On January 18th, I committed to publishing daily on Medium for one hundred straight days.
I’m no stranger to streaks. Just one week later, I completed a 1,000 day streak of daily live-streaming, which was a massive challenge that required me to uplevel myself in myriad ways.
But yesterday, I technically broke my Medium publication streak. Instead of self-publishing on Medium yesterday (as I have been doing), I submitted two pieces to publications. Because those publications need time to review and accept the pieces, nothing was published to the public-facing side of my Medium account. That’s technically a failure.
What will it take for you to make a change in life?
Will you make it take something horrible?
Will you make it take death, destruction, or devastation?
Because many of us, that’s what we demand.
We require of the universe:
HIT ME WITH EVERYTHING YOU’VE GOT …
and until then, I’m not listening!
But couldn’t we take another path?
Couldn’t we consider acting out of desire,
and not of dread?
Couldn’t we respond to our desires,
instead of only disasters?
Couldn’t we choose to be proactive,
instead of reactive? …
In the long days of the pandemic, when we collectively and individually start hitting the infamous pandemic wall, it can be easy to lose our sense of wonder.
We can become preoccupied with all of the things that are missing from our lives. We can easily turn our attention to how much is wrong and forget about all the things that are right.
So, maybe it’s been a minute since you were charmed or fascinated by the fact that you even exist?
What if you stopped for a moment, in complete and utter amazement, and considered the amazing fact that…
I lived for decades being unwittingly victimized by other people. If you had called me a victim, I would have questioned you with a strong side-eye. I have always seen myself as capable, successful and empowered.
And yet, I was playing the victim.
And I was so good at disguising it.
Do you want to know how? How I was victimizing myself with other people’s actions, non-actions and words?
I constantly had divided focus: part on my self, my life, my work, my actions, but mostly those things I could do on autopilot. I could get the things done, handle…
We cannot be the fullest, best, truest, most badass version of our selves, by ourselves. We are social creatures. We thrive in supportive environments. We flourish in community. We grow when we grow others.
And yet, when life gets hard, when our dreams recede into the distance of our imaginations, when we get stuck in a rut, even when that rut looks like “success” to other people, we withdraw. We hide. We alienate ourselves from the very thing that we want: companionship, love, togetherness.
We get very busy.
Too busy to stop and be present in our lives.
As we approach the end of the month, I begin to feel the pull of mid-to-long-term planning. One month, in a whole new year, comes to an end, and another one is hot on its heels.
To me, long-term planning is one way to play the game of life. One way that I play the game of life is to set about doing tasks that seem impossible or futile or just downright silly. These games, this play, has changed my life. …